/Forget me not

....Casey

Thu, 24 May 2007 14:35:24 GMT

<3's casey for the rest of forever.
she was mommys baby, an our lil sister.
we loved her then, and now we love her more than ever.

ima be able to sing this song like no oth'a

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 20:10:07 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-A_mf5vJTw

holy fuckin shit, i love this song, hes not that great lookin but damn he can sing!

whoo, man is it hot in 'ere? damn....

what is love?

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 18:04:23 GMT


bad ass act is love
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cim

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 17:47:11 GMT

yeah bitch what now i so passed my cim! si w/ a 246 yes!!!!

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 17:57:07 GMT

im wonderin which one of you guys have my pheonixfire account? if you do could you tell me?

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 17:52:48 GMT

well i tried out for color gaurd yesturday and wat a ya know im actually decent. i made it WOOT! im so excited i get my flag today after school. im happy.
lovin those who care.
****

my super adorable baby being so cute

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 20:26:54 GMT

From: Lefty's baby girl
Date: Aug 19, 2005 8:44 AM

WHAT IS/ARE...

My favorite bands?:System of the down

My favorite pair of shoes?:ur black ones

Color are my eyes?:brown

One thing you want to say to me? we got it good

One thing you want to hear me say?: uhuh

Worst thing I've done to you?: went anti-social for the day

Best thing I've done for you?: made you whole

What do you think of my personality?: funny ( in good way) loveable

How well do you think you know me?: i know u somewhat and i wants to learn more
What would you do if I died tommorow?: die of a dead life

What would you tell me if you knew that I would?: i love you

Your favorite memory of me is?: watching stars, holdin hands right when hawk man was there

What would you do if I started crying in front of you?: take u in my arms and comfort u

Your Favorite thing about me?: ur cuddliness

Your least favorite thing about me?:?.? to hell withthat

My favorite color?: you dont have one if someone asks but its actuallly green

One question you've always wanted to ask me?:what made you like me??

^ Do you think I will answer that question when I find it?: ya

DO YOU...

Like me?: do i like you?,, do i like you?,, I love ya

dislike me?:!..@ no

Think Im annoying?: no, i dont talk to annoying ppl

Immature?:no

Cute?:? ofcourse

sexy?:yup

ugly?: hell no

Do you think I'm two faced?:no way

Have a crush on me?:yup

Did you answer the above questions honestly?:ya

Do you wish we were closer?: yup

AND MORE....

Describe me in 5 words:happy,loving,cuddly,cute,my babe

If you had me alone in your room and I'd go along with anything, what would we do?:dance, talk, cuddle

Was your previous answer sexual?:i dont think so

Are you ashamed for being a pervert now?: no and i am not

Would you say we are close?:yup

What song lyric reminds you of me?: i gotz 2 listen to every song i know of now to think bout that

Would you care if I moved away?:i would really care

Would you visit me in the hospital?:yup

Even if I was only there for 2 days?:ya

Are you glad you know me?: glad isnt good enough

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...

I kissed you?:pull head away, smile and kiss u back

Hugged you?: hold on for dear life not letting anything separate us

Held your hand?:play hand wars and then grab ur other hand

Said I loved you?: reply with i love u to and hug u if possible

Said I hated you (and meant it):shut myself away from the world, die spiritually for the rest of my life, and not care about my life

I said you were funny lookin?:frown

I was being made fun of at school?: round up my posse and find the person

NOW FOR THE REALLY RANDOM QUESTIONS...

If you gave me a hamster what would you name it?: ..3

What color looks best on me?:green

Does my hair smell nice?:ya

T/F, do I like people playing with my hair? i dunno

Do you think Im putting this survey here to see if you actually know me as well as you think you do?: no

Was it fun?: ya

Panda?: no giraffe

tis ok

my story

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 22:55:19 GMT

this is a story that hurt less to write then it did to read to everyone..please take this eriously....and please look through my eyes if you want the rest of it comment..this is only a taste i dont think yall can handel this side of moie...

A turning point by cameo stuck
you see what most people don’t understand is there is a fine line between seeing and believing. You cant see everything you know. Nor can you believe everything. Maybe being able to see was a gif t form the gods to make you believe that there really is one. You are able to prevent your self from seeing the bad in someone. The horrors about then that are completely visible. We never look souley into the good of a person either. Somewhere in the back of our minds, there’s a few doubts that are eating away at your heart. Yet we still deny the obvious flaws, that continue to rip us apart. We allow the things that crawl and slither in our nightmares to come to life in the perfect form. Making them appear harmless. We give them our hearts. Leaving our selves open and vulnerable, praying that they wont hurt you...but in the end they always do. They Handel your heart with tenderness and care. When you’ve finally reached the top of the love latter. They shred your heart into a million pieces...to sharp to put back together. And hurl them into the ocean, to let the salt deprive your heart of all its velvety insides. Leaving it to wither up, cold and die.
Epiphany could be portrayed as confused, possibley blind, stubborn. But most see her as suicidally divine.
How is it possible, to hurt on a emotional level, yet be considered suicidal? The thoughts of suicide have always lingered in everyones thoughts wether we like or not. Maybe just a selfless thought of making a cut would help things to heal. The emotional stress and agony that puts pressure on the very thread of you life. Which always raises that same question in your mind.
“Does it really matter if I live or die?”
Before epiphany came to be she had to stumble into the arms of safety. The arms that would reassure her that things would be okay and not to worry. She had to whole heartedly believe that wherever she was going, was going to last.
Epiphany lived in a turning point one that was spinning horridly fast. Things were only constant for days at a time. They followed in a pattern a rythem a rhyme. But for her this was life, there was no middle ground. Only the normal days of struggle and strife. There was no chance of changing the impossible. Just as you can never change the color of darkness, its unchangeable. Darkness is more than just a shade. Most see colors as colors shades as shades. To her darkness was only a trade, a trade of perception. She willingly shielded herself from the hell she created. Stepping blindly into darkness where she knew she would be hated. Stepping down into the realm of deceptiveness , where everything changes from. Weaving the faint truth, with a needle into her torn arm. Engraving every detail , every touch, every glare. Into the back of her mind, remembering them all each and every swear. Only living in the present only standing in one place. Sinking further into hell- but this wasn’t even the beginning this was only a taste.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 18:31:48 GMT

well for and actually update on my life. ive been goin to UB for the past week. it was hell at first cuz i hate the whole group activities all the freckin time. there is no indepent work what soever except for your school work. but i new only a few people from tuesday nights, lance and troy. and there my lil click now, theer such punks seriously, but i love em. and me and troy have been attached at the hip since, we got to talking. and now well...its a mutual thing though cuz technacly ere not allowed to date. so if were asked f were dating we can truthfully say that were not. but every one knows we want each other realy bad. like ive actaully been able to sit down with him, and just tell him how i feel, "hey babe i like ya i like ya alot." and it dosnt freak me out to tell him. cuz he likes me too. and im not sure if its love. but for now its a love, but a differnt brand. its not a im gonna fuck you cuz i love you so much love, its a you care about me, and i know you love me, and i know i love you tpe thingy. but its just great to have him around. hes everything that cris was sapposed to be, but never was. just when i think that shit was all that i deserved, and all i would ever achivce, tr0y comes along. and he fixed everything. when im with him, i matter. and that a big deal cuz b4 i never mattered. and when im not with him, im missed his world goes up in flames without me. im really missed when im gone can you belive it?! yeah i know. when im sad hes there to make me happy. hes just so there, and now i dont feel like i have to wait around from cris anymore. now that i see that there is better out there then him. *breath-less sigh*
life is good....

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 18:19:15 GMT

woot! im back for 3 more days you guys can call me, if ya all want to. but im goin back to campus on tues day between7-8 o'clock okie? so wanna go to a moive or somfin tues. call me.

love you
(missy, sunrise)
mo mo

missy, a story for you let the cristizism start

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 05:20:27 GMT

uhh..no name, it sucks, i tryed fantasy just to see if i could do it...and it didnt turn out well....

the star lit sky was still awake, casting beams of light across the velvety sky. the night was restless, in awaiting the wonders of the aurora. and her plans for there dear madien.

(NOTE: if you want the actual begning ask for it, i left alot out.)

sora contently gazed into the depths of the fire.the energy of its spirit danced within her dark eyes. shadows played hide and seek on her ivory complection. as she enjoyed the company of the fires warmth. she gently storked storms silver fur. pondering his dreams. the compasinote animal nudged her with his cold nose. and looked up to the north sky. sora hummed a unfamiliar lullabye. it was even foriegn to her lips. the tune formed its melody, as the beautiful words spilled from her soft lips. she slowly brought her gaze to storms. re sora gazed upon the vivacious northern light. the older, grey wolf stood, and began rolling stones in a circel around her. as sora asked her self what did these lights mean? she was entranced by the auroa. were these lights a sign from the gods? did they foretell the beginging of something good? it became suddenly very dark. as the lullabye slowly faded, it became silent. sora sensed and errie presence, when her thoughts became her own again. yet still held still. only the sound of her breathing was heard. a small light began to form right before her eyes. squinting to see it better. it grew larger with speed, till it filled her eyes with so much light, she became blind. the stones that had been formulated around her, began to flare with color. unvisable markinga became known. she sounght her self deaf until a voice percied the scilence with a wisper.
"Sora?"

(NOTE: okay this is really confusing, cuz i typed this quite lat, while sitting on the childern , so there are more mistakes, plz forgive me. but you get it. and the entire time all of this is happening it is pin drop silent okay? so uh picture, but with sounds.)

dare i ask?

comments?

cuz all you loseres wont read it when i lj-cut to nener!

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 04:50:15 GMT

spinnin into the next day

lying on the floor, starting up at the fan
wonderin why the hell it would just spin
around and around, its that all it can?
it seems sorta pointless dosnt it?
it not getting anywhere
its attached to something else damn it
why cant it move on?
its getting further and further
away...its gone
closing my eyes
just think, thats all
i have to do,
i can just lie here and fantisize
if i wanted too
thats all im capeable of
just another poem, or another story
a form of getting away, up higher above
all of this, above all of them
all the stupididty, the mistakes
and you wouldnt even wonder where ive been
so lets go, lets spin around
just keep spinnin'
just keep spinin'
till you drownd, out all the truth
all of reality
spin it into the ground
why does it keep spinnin like that?
is it cuz, its tryin to get away?
tryin to forget, everything that it once had?
its to painfull to think back
on what it lost, so it spins
spins away
just keep spinnin...
just spin into the next day....

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 16:42:18 GMT

uh...

i feel like im runin out of time...like in being pushed to figure things out right now.
that im being forced to mend thingst that dont need to be mended. like kelse
i dont even know if things are okaybetween us, and it donst seem to bother her
therefore it dosnt really matter now does it? but i would like to fix things between us
that is if there broken, but i dont really.. want everything to be okay, but i dont want to
have to look into the eyes who i think i broke.. i dont want to put any direct effort into
fixing tings that they dont, i feel like the world will be ending soon, well my world
but the thing is, is that i dont wnat mey world to end not just yet, i wanna stick around,
i wanna see kat grow up and complete her dreams, i wanna see somebody treat my katie right
and pass the moie/kat test. i wanna see cris raise his baby girl up to be a young lady, i wanna
do something with my self, although im not entirely sure of what, but i know i wanna do something
thats for me, this time. i feel like i havent slowed down enough to see my self, before my eyes, and to see
that i have chaned in so many horrid ways. im no longer moie anymore, im some bitch that even i hate
its so odd that i didnt see this coming. i want to put everything on pause for a second or two long enough
for me to stop and think about myself, what i want to do with my life, how i wanna do it, who i want to spend it with
or who i dont want to spend it with. i just wanna go back, rewind back to when i knew what i was doing,
where i was going. its agervatting to me that i know exactly how to solve everyone elses issues and disputes, and make things
a okay, but i cant help my self. im starting to realize slowly but surley...that no matter how hard i deny it...i cant do things on my own
im not that big of a girl, i need something that that i can rely on, that i know will stay solid, and that i know wont pull my
chair out from underneathe me, and if it does, itll catch me. but i dont understand how to do that! and now im
runnin out of time, the time i so desperatetly need right now, things are going too fucking fast for me, like
i cant even stop to breath..im thinking that i should just let it go, let it washway all of this shit thats spinning
my mind, just so that i dont have to feel like im runnin out of time.....im a sohpmore now can you belive it?
im growin up, right before your eyes, but im missing someone to watch me too...but the thing is that they have never been around
to see anything that i do, even when i was littel they didnt stick around, i didnt realyl care then, but now that im older its driving my heart into
the ground that he dosnt give even a fuck about his daughters life, its killin me, that this whole time, ive belveied in his lies, about
coming home soon, about missing me as much as i do, i was so nieve, that i couldnt see past the man who i called daddy, who i thought
loved me, and now times up, and i have nothin here to remind me of what e might have had together, now what? im just gonna pass on
and hes not even gonna care now that im gone.....i just wish i could erase him from my dreams, from my thoughts , my mind you know what i mean?
i just want him, and everything else, gone, so i can have a lil more time....

okay that was not ment to come out as a poem just so you know.

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 16:31:08 GMT

Cursed by the darkness..
Disowned by the light.
Betrayed by you..
And everyone else in this cold world.
I know no happyness.
but I am no stranger to pain.
My best friend is hatred.
I sit in silences...crying these loney tears..
Wondering why I put myself through this..
I feel as if I were a puppet to Rage.
Confused and lost in my own little world.
Nothing has a meaning to me.
I go day to day being un-noticed..
You See right through me...
If you only knew how I felt...
piercing words..Strip my flesh.
I have no need for life.
Not caring if I lived or died.
Cut marks in-graved into my arm..
as a sign of my lost hope.
This is just how I live my life..
All love is lost...

credit to- crissy

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 16:03:32 GMT

gah i want this one as my icon..does anyone know how to change the lil BMP at the end to GIF or one the ones i can actaully use!!! this is driving me nuts! GAH!

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 15:46:43 GMT

u no wat? i starting to think that xander(sp?) and anya(SP?) are actually really cute together (:

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 06:41:12 GMT

gah, i cant sleep, fucking ex wont get outta my head, fucking words that he said, so many fucking times, are buzzing around in my mind, i wish i could just turn it the hell off, but no of course not, fuck it, i just gotta close my eyes, and not deal w/this shit, gah! get outta my head, i just wanna sleep, i dont wanna feel dead, to the heart, you leavin yet still livein in my mind, its tarin me apart, but i got alot time right>? well you would think so, now wouldnt you? but you dont know, we could be gone tommorw, we could never wake from our sweet slumber, the world could end and youd never even remember,me, or the time we spent in each others arms, so the rises the question...does it even matter, if we make up today? or even the day after?, if loves army, us it captures? if you were mysteriously brought together one more god damnd time, just for that one day, that one last time, before the world and all its shit, was gone, and you were offered the chance to be mine...would take it? or would you, let it pass you by?...

i read a certain entry

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 23:45:13 GMT

to see you with her
its just a shot to the heart
although your not aware
your ripping me apart
i just wish sometimes that i never met you
so that i would never have to hide like i am
i wouldnt have to pretend im not hurt
i wouldnt have to stand
here and watch you go on with your life
as if nothing happend,between us
i want to make things right
but im scared..im scared because i see...
you with her, and how happy you are
and i know that this is the way things should be
how i always manage to fine the ones who
i cant have, to hold or love
but yet they've still been placed here
right within my grasp
she could reach out and wipe away my tear
the ones i shed for her,when no ones around
if they ever new, they still wouldnt understand
they cant see through me eyes, they dont know the path im bound
how could they say they're sorry?
they cant feel what i feel right fucking now?!
so ill hide it away, within the
depths of my mind
i'll keep it locked up
it will dissapear within time
all i pray is that, youll be content
youve found someone who loves you
and im sure together you two were ment
as it is i, should just goway
and let you live your lives
maybe well be together, someday?
but i just wanna see you happy
thats all that really matters
thats all that really counts
thats all that needs to happen, that what its all about

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 23:44:16 GMT

the tears they no longer hesitate to fall
they vent the words, the feeling that i can not
say at all
i dont know why its come back to this
it seems that it always does
and im sorry, its just i miss...
you, you dont understand why
but i cant just keep it enclosed
keep it inside
its something i cant hide forever
its something that needs to be told
its something like us, that needs to be together
but no one gets it, they just dont care
get over it already,
i would but i just cant, bare
its all, the weight of all the love i carry
its beginng to crush me
into a thousad pisces to sharp to barry
i love everything, i just cant stop
your eyes, just the simplicty of their shade
your smile, your warm arms, how can i not
the way you would come over and hug me
like you ment it
kiss me like, like this was where you wanted to be
things have gotten just so fucked up
we no longer talk
i hardly see you, so this is my luck
i fall for you,
right into your arms
but you let go, letting me fall there was nothing i could do
i dont hate you for it
as long as i tell meself
that it was for the best
i should be alright-
no i will i always am,
an i could never let you know how i really feel
so i will simle when i see you with her
hold it all down,keep it hidden
i wouldnt want you to, do what you did to me
to her
i would never forgive myself
i love you way to much
its so passionate, this i have never felt
only once, and that was from you
i was need, wanted i had a place
in your arms, in the light of your face
i just cant stop thinking back
to what we had...
i ..i just really want you back

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 00:18:23 GMT

a simple thread
that ill tie around my neck
then to the hanger in my closet
then ill stand and gaze down
from way up here
to what im about to leave
to what i will no longer fear
to what ill will no longer be
im ready this time
to be gone for good
you never helped me through
like you promised you would
like in the note that i left on my bed
i wrote to you,
everything im my head
everything i knew
a story, a fairy tale
one that i new would never come true
but what i dont understand
are the pages in my picture book
they smile and laugh, kiss and make up
they all have happy endings
they all have happy looks
why would someone write these?
just to say ha you'll never live like this?
they're mocking me...
but ive written my own fairly tale
ive colored the pages in my book
satin red,they gleam and shine
my true fairy tale that will be all mine
i havent written and ending
im leaving that up to you
ive written this story, this is all true
so for my departure
make sure you fill it in
excatly what you did to me
sin for sin
for the cover ive chosen
the color of all my tears
ive saved them in a jar
labeld them my fears
add a few of your own
and my book will be complete
everyone will know
exactly what you did to me
..oh sweet thread take me away
take me higher
into the night of day
just a littel tighter...
to remember me
as a favor to remove your debt
would you please...
color the skys a red...
sunset

30 bumper stickers that rock!

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 20:50:12 GMT

Top 30 bumper stickers
30. Constipated people don't give a crap.
29. Practice safe sex, go screw yourself.
28. Who lit the fuse on your tampon?
27. Please tell your pants its not polite to point.
26. If that phone was up your butt, maybe you could drive a little better.
25. My kid got your honor roll student pregnant.
24. If you can read this, I've lost my trailer.
23. Horn broken...watch for finger.
22. It's not how you pick your nose... it's where you put the booger.
21. If you're not a hemorrhoid, get off my ass.
20. Could you drive any better if I shoved that cell phone up your ASS?
19. If you can read this, I can slam on my brakes and sue you!
18. Jesus loves you, but everyone else thinks you're an asshole.
17. 100,000 sperm and YOU were the fastest?
16. Your gene pool needs a little chlorine.
15. You're just jealous because the voices are talking to me and not you!
14. DON'T PISS ME OFF! I'M RUNNING OUT OF PLACES TO HIDE THE BODIES.
13. Jesus is coming! Look busy!
12. Save Your Breath ... You'll need it to blow up your date!
11. Forget world peace. Visualize using your turn signal.
10. All Men Are Animals, Some Just Make Better Pets.
9. Some people are only alive because it is illegal to shoot them.
8. BEER: It's not just for breakfast anymore.
7. So you're a feminist...Isn't that cute.
6. The more you complain, the longer God makes you live.
5. Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs.
4. Hang up and drive.
3. Don't drink and drive...You might hit a bump and spill your drink.
2. Friends help you move. Real friends help you move bodies.

And the Number 1 Bumper Sticker:
1. Be nice to your kids...They will pick out your nursing home.

Tue, 31 May 2005 19:42:29 GMT

tell me what you see, can you see what i see through your eyes?? can you see how i really feel on the inside?can you hurt too, can you feel the way i do? do you understand why im upset? do you even care,you dont i bet...but still try to visulaize, how this makes me feel, look through the widow through MY EYES, and tell me how to heal

Sat, 28 May 2005 20:00:32 GMT

okay guys the plans for this summer, i just gottem in the mail please read carefully,
and get a hold of me if you wanna do something be4 i get trapped at pacific okay? NOTE: there are no visitors allowed.!
anyways here they are
the summer program begings JUNE 25- and ends AUGUST 5

ARRIVAL: june 25

WEEKENDS/DAYS OFF/ IM AT HOME CALL MOM IF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHIN:
JULY 1
JULY2
JULY3
JULY4 return pm or
JULY 5 return am

JULY 22
JULY23
JULY24

FORTH OF JULY: okay i have the choice of either comin back to campus on the 4th between 7:00 and 8:00 p.m NO EARLIER!
OR i can stay july 3, july4, and return JULY 5 BEFORE 8:00 A.M, NOTE I NEED A RIDE, ANY VOLUENTEERS?
they wont allow me to walk *pouts*

NOTE: i need a reliable ride for weekends and such, and unfortunatley my mother will be in chicago, and yes so i cant go home on weekends
im not gonna put all this on you guys, so if i dont get any calls from you guys, ill be ALONE, IN MY DORM CRYING
CUZ NOBODY WANTS ME, if you wanted to know.

and yeah that my whole summer, wait i forgot
IM WONT BE WITH ANYONE ON AUGUST 12 THAT WHOLE WEEK IVE DEDICATED TO MY SISSY

love you all
*mo mo